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TRIGGER WARNING.

For best quality I uploaded in 4K.

This video is extremely personal and close to me. It's pretty much a relationship autobiography of mine of a very toxic relationship I was in for years.

Started years ago, and he was addicted to K2, the synthetic marijauna, for the majority of our relationship. He got us evicted, multiple orders of protection, abuse, threats, we were homeless during my entire pregnancy, and he only recently got a job to help with anything during the last year.

It got to the point that I was eventually responding to his aggression with aggression of my own, which only got CPS involved with our son. And losing him didn't even pause his addiction.

Multiple promises of redemption and begging and improvement, nothing worked. Eventually he called himself leaving one day, moving out when I was gone to try and punish me, and I said it was over, refusing to let him back the next week.

I had to move from our home of 3 years, because every room in the house was full of property damage, holes in walls and cabinets, too many reminders.

I'm realizing I'd rather be alone, than stay with that for more years to come.

The only good thing about our relationship is my two year old son, which finishes off the video.

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What you have is not love. It's some kind of evil alchemy. Where you amplify the most vile instincts in each other. You're toxic.

You don't know me in the least do you?
Yes, I do. We're a bad match.

I cant do this anymore.
I just said I was sorry.
That's not enough.

What have I ever done to you for you to treat me this way?

What is wrong with me?
Sometimes he looks at me like I disgust him.

Get your hands off me.

For what its worth I'm sorry.
I don't know why I keep doing this.

I'm a bastard when I drink.

I'm going to go to counseling.

Imma be good, baby I promise. You hear me?

I'll do anything you want just forgive me please.
Tell me what you want me to do and I'll do it.
You don't mean that shit.

And I thought it was my fault.

Is this a game you want to play with me?

What kind of man are you?

I hate you.

I loved you, I never would have hurt you. Why did you do this to me? To us?

The things that I have given up, the pieces of myself that I have given away for you, and you treat me this way.

You don't deserve anything.

Do you even love me anymore?

You took life from me, and you never even said I'm sorry.

You don.t have to be so mean.
I'm not trying to hurt you, I'm trying to get rid of you.

I have spent too many years trying to protect your heart.
Now you've made your choice.
I need to protect mine.

Is that what love feels like? Pain?

I have no more fight left to give.
I've got nothing left.
I have nothing left.
I'm done.

I don't love you anymore.

You have to let me go.

The woman I am now, is done with you.

You have to let me let you go.

This cant be it.
Then how come it is?

I break up with you.

And I will never be yours again.

I think I already got the best part of you.

We can have everything.

What's left over just doesn't look so good anymore.

The only thing that truly made me happy was my son.