I finally overcame my scares and worries of making a youtube video over why I have no friends and about my life living with social anxiety.

I recently just graduated college and am finding it harder to make friends and also finding it harder just to go through any type of social interaction in general.

Social anxiety has drastically taken it toll on my life and I know I am not the only one going through this. I know there are many people out there living with anxiety and fear of social interactions.

It's ironic because as a kid I never had this issue and even up to my early 20's I did not even know what social anxiety was. I had friends, although never any close ones until 21 and 22, I never had a problem making friends and interacting with people.

As i started to enter my mid 20's I knew I had a social issue and it was becoming increasingly harder not only to make friends but to interact with anybody including my family.

Every time somebody, no matter who it was, I would get this rush over me almost like an instant adrenaline rush. I would get it so bad that it would make me stutter on my words and I would not be able to complete my sentences and I would say things that just did not make any sense at all.

This is in turn would fuel my social anxiety even worse and it would just be a viscous cycle and embarrassing cycle of failure.

Now I am doing insane amounts of research on how to overcome social anxiety and how i can get better. I now have to go out and find a big boy job and go through interviews and I know that this will be a challenge if i can not make a connection or seem like a good social interacting individual to my potential employers.

The world is not fair and us who live with social anxiety are disadvantaged. Living with no friends, slight depression, and fear of social interactions can take its toll on us.

I am doing my best to overcome this and will keep you updated along my way.

If you read this please comment down below and let me know as I feel as if I am literally just talking to myself and writing a diary entry for nobody to ever see...

If you read this, I hope I can help you and thanks for reading.

  / ben_mayz